Stay Awake

Some people say that they have a problem when they try to stay awake, but I seem to have the opposite problem. This has been a shocking development for me, as I have never had a problem with sleeping. I love to sleep, but apparently my body has decided it’s not sure if it wants to get the proper amount of rest any more. I have been having problems sleeping since August, and though I get a few good nights in here and there, my body just seems to be determined to stay awake.

It’s not that I’m not tired. I’m usually exhausted. That exhaustion has followed me around for quite a few months now. No matter how tired I am when I lie down, my brain decides it wants to stay awake. I lie there staring at the ceiling as a million and one thoughts run through my mind. No matter what I do, I can’t seem to turn them off. I have tried writing everything down, making to do lists, and contacting the people that are on my mind, but I still stay awake well into the night.

I’m not sure why my mind wants me to stay awake. There is no major crisis going on in my life. I have had a friend going through some huge worries and a medical scare, but that situation has been resolved. I don’t know if that is what is causing me to stay awake, but I don’t know how much more I can take. My body is full of aches and pains because I can’t sleep properly, and I find that I have a shorter temper than I used to have, and I lose focus rather easily.

My husband has suggested that all of the time I stay awake is not healthy, and I have to agree. He says that I might have to consider medication, but that is the last thing that I want. I don’t want to take something that might cause me to be groggy during the day, and might stop me from waking up when my child needs me at night. However, if I continue to stay awake until four or five in the morning, I might not have any choice in the matter if I want to stay sane. You can only miss so much sleep before you start to go crazy, and for me, that’s not a long trip.

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